Hello my brothers and sisters! I am so very happy that you have been kept by the Lord and He has given you more grace. Better today than yesterday and better tomorrow than we were today! Remember, we have the Spirit of the Living God dwelling inside of us and we are more than conquerors through Christ! No matter what the day throws at us, because of what Jesus did, we are mighty people… yet not us, but Christ in us! Hallelujah!
So, today I did something on the fly. A spur of the moment type thing. Yes, I took a leap, faced my fears AND…
- a modest or low view of one’s own importance; humbleness.
So Let us Talk About It…
Okay, so here is what happened. I have been flirting with the idea of going live, with my own voice, my own face!! I feel the anxiety build in my chest as I think about it. It is so much easier to type all this out rather than say it, for me at least. Key-board warrior chief over here… Call me Chief Yellow Belly. I called into a live show… yep. I listen to all my news via dare I tell you, Marfoogle News or Marfoogle TV and I had the bright idea after talking to all of you the other day, that I would call into the show the next time they had a call in show. Well that was tonight. or your last night depending on where you are. You heard me right, November 15th 2022 I feel I made a fool of myself in front of 195,000 people. Hold on, I need a paper bag.
Yeah, needless to say, I was nervous, I said nothing I wanted to, I stumbled over my words, I actually sighed and I sounded so uneducated it hurt. To say the least, it was painful to re-listen to it. I forced myself to listen to it no matter how This is something of a character flaw for me… hate does not describe my feelings towards being viewed as stupid or uneducated. I think threads of toxic femininity wove its way into me without me knowing or maybe it is a respectful thing towards humans in general.
I am a woman, not a door mat and I have a brain…says my ego.
In the end, what does it matter what others think of me so long as God is pleased with me and my husband is pleased, no other person’s opinions truly matter. Not really. Our actions say everything about us and nothing about them
But I digress.
The thing about humility, it is a hands-on lesson. The only way to learn to be humble is for the Lord to allow you to go down paths that will lead to your total and complete embarrassment in peculiar ways AND it is necessary. If you don’t take the time to learn the lesson, you will go back for training until you have learned it. The longer you walk down this road of life, you quickly learn to humble yourself OR you just keep reliving all sorts of embarrassing moments. If you forget what it means to be humble, don’t worry, as a child of the Most High, I promise that wont last long.
Woe unto the world because of offences! for it must needs be that offences come; but woe to that man by whom the offence cometh!
So what did we learn…
- Let God lead you.
- Even though my idea was sound and I am not so nervous now about going vocal.
- Fear in the face of failure is the scariest right before you take that chance.
- Yes, I embarressed myself BUT
- Learn from it.
- Run from it.
- Which will it be.
- Yes, I embarressed myself BUT
- Stop worrying about what others think.
- I ruined the moment because I was caught up in what they might think.
- Honestly, Did I give glory to God in what I did… that is what matters.
- I don’t think I did but who am I to say.
- A plan of action in all things is key to success.
- Hence the list here.
I learned many other things but that will have to wait for a longer post and more daylight hours.
I think after my humiliating social defeat, I am going to take this woman’s advice and find a good book or the back of my eyelids. Most-likely the latter and set this post up so I will be good and asleep long before it posts. I am not ready to be humiliated back to back.
Until next I write, remember all the things that come our way are meant to build us into better versions. That being said brothers and sisters, stay uniquely peculiar… I am off to reflect on the day’s events.
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I’m proud of you 🥰 that took courage and you did it girl! Yes it might not have been perfect like you perhaps imagined but like you said it was a learning experience and I believe you will have your podcast soon and look back at that experience and laugh.
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