O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable are his judgments, and his ways past finding out!
Romans 11:33 KJV

Hello brothers and sisters, how are you today? I am so very glad the Father has seen you through another day and back to my rambling thoughts. I don’t know what is going on in your life but I know the Father and I am getting to know him even more every day! One of the greatest things I have learned lately is that God is God and worthy to be praised even in the worst of times. I also learned a little more about what it means to give it to Jesus.

Lets say you apply for a job somewhere and you really want this position. You have taken all the proper steps; you have prayed about it and you have told the Lord it is His will be done and you have given it to Him. Now you have two choices – you can accept His will – yes, no or wait a while – or you can throw a fit. If you have said His will be done, you have voiced that He is in control and you are willing to accept His decision in your life.

Today I took a nap. The second one in the last two days. I never take them because I wake up like a crazy lady. I have no clear idea of the day or the hour or even if it is morning or night. I wake up in complete confusion and it takes me a few minutes to gather all the information needed to find these things out.

I have considered the days of old, The years of ancient times.
Psalm 77:5 KJV

I was thinking about the meme that has been going around for some time now. The “I don’t want to adult” saying. Some days I really don’t want to do what I have to do that day. I would rather hit the snooze button than get up and leave the warmth of my blankets. However, I never want to go back to being young either… I remember being five and wanting to do things but unable to because I was too little… no thank you. I do not want to go back to not adulting. I like not answering to anyone but my God, my husband and myself. Being grown has its drawbacks but so does being little and if given the choice, I will just keep getting older.

They shall still bring forth fruit in old age; They shall be fat and flourishing;
Psalm 92:14 KJV

The Symptoms

They are all the same. Nothing new to discuss in this department. However, I am worn out. As I said above I have taken two naps in the last two days. I never do this so I know there must be some healing happening inside. I love the way the Lord works on us. He works from the inside out and not the other way. I still had a smoke today but I figure I will count it as a win since that seems to be the going rate for the last few days. Soon I hope to let go of that pacifier and just trust that Jesus is not going to let me die and even if He does – it is His will be done.

When people “fix” things, more often than not, we do so from the outside in. Most of the time we are tempted to fix it in the cheapest way possible and like a child, what people cannot see is well, what they cannot see. Someone I knew once bought a car and it looked great and they commented on how it looked and I was like yes but how does it run and they gave me a list of the reasons why they were not going to be able to drive it for a while. But it was pretty! What is the point in having a beautiful car that sits in your driveway because it does not work?

To be honest this self discipline thing is kinda addictive. I suppose out of all the things I could be addicted to, this would be the least damaging. Lord knows I could use more of it in my life. Between the not smoking thing and drinking plenty of water, which I only made half a gallon today, I am excited to see what other changes can be made in my life to help me feel better and to take care of this body the Lord blessed me with.

Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. Let us therefore, as many as be perfect, be thus minded: and if in any thing ye be otherwise minded, God shall reveal even this unto you.
Philippians 3:13‭-‬15 KJV