And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.
Galatians 6:9 KJV

Hello brothers and sisters, I pray you have been well and I am happy as always that the Lord has brought you once again to me and my random thoughts. Thank you for taking time to have a cup of coffee or tea with me.

I have been consuming Dr. Jordan Peterson lectures since my sister introduced me to him. I know some would argue that he is not someone to take advice from and I get it but for me – he is confirming so many things for me. As I learn more and more about myself and my place in this world, I have fought with what it might look like to walk this christian life out. I can hear some of you now… I am not here to judge the man’s heart or where he might be going… I am here to say that he has very good advice and when viewed through a biblical lens – are even better!

Don’t misunderstand, nothing out does the good book but sometimes it is hard to apply the lessons from Scripture to real life and for some reason Jordan Peterson does that for me. The reason I bring this up is two fold. First, I don’t believe in coincidence and therefore I will not look a gift horse in the mouth. Secondly, I want to share the life wisdom of this man with all of you. As always take what man has to say with a grain of salt unless it is biblical.

However with that being said there were things that Dr. Peterson said that made me sit up and pay attention. They were things I used to do but stopped doing for a number of reasons. Pleasing people out of fear of losing them, laziness, for becoming weary in well-doing, and for listening to the world when it said I had a right to be upset when walked on. Which, yes, I suppose I do if I want to make it all about me.

But ye, brethren, be not weary in well doing.
2 Thessalonians 3:13 KJV

Over time I was made to feel guilty for the way I had done things, not by any one person but more from my own hatefulness turned inward. It seemed my failures outweighed my successes. Everything I tried to do to make things right was failing and my world was crumbling from beneath me. As I look back I can see where I went wrong. I stopped trusting Jesus. Period. I cannot put my finger on the exact day or time when it happened. It seems like it happened slowly over time. I wish I could find the precise moment it happened but for now it evades me and perhaps it always will.

This was the weight that was crushing me. Knowing I could have been so much more in the Lord than I had become. If I had walked the path the Lord had for me – my life would have looked completely different but this too comes with sadness. If we change anything in our past, we might not have the people we love in our lives either. I cannot imagine my life without my loved ones nor do I want to. They are all a part of who I am. So are all my pains and sorrows, joyful moments and the happiness in life. They all shaped and molded me, by the direction of the Father, into the woman I am today.

nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:39 KJV

I know that if this was a thing for me, there are others that are either going through it or that have gone through it. I don’t know how your faith in the Lord has dimmed or what happened to cause you to stop trusting in the Lord but I know if we are honest with ourselves we can see where He never left us. I had a lot of repenting to do. For the way that I doubted Jesus and for putting my faith and trust in other things.

However, praise Jesus, God is faithful and merciful! He will finish what He has begun in us!

For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: But the wicked shall fall into mischief.
Proverbs 24:16 KJV